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March 17 MYSPACEHey, if anyone still looks at this thing, just an FYI, check me at my myspace instead, i'm never on this thing anymore, k?
i got mentle prolems, just ignore my crazyness
TTFG
Ta Ta For Good
September 12 LONG TIME NO TYPE, PEOPLE!!!Lmao, it's been awile since i've put anything on this one, i know. i sorries, but this is the first accsess i've had to msn since i moved! don't hate me pple!!!
 so... what has happend to me?... not much really... oh! exsept for being taken advantate of in my OWN APAETMENT by what i thought was a friend of mine. i have brusies soooo big on my arms that i gotta wear long sleve in the summer to avoid questions!
 I think what hurst most is that i thought i knew him. he broke my best friend into little peases, tried to make it her fault, and THEN Dumped her to go out with a slut bag by the name of Sabrena, who we all call flame. THEN when i'm in my own home he waits till i'm comatose and bites, not hits, but BITES the shit otta me, saying things that i wouldn't like to repeat if i can avoid it.
 he never would have done this to me with my husband around. he wouldn't have dared. now that i'm not with Chad though, mark AND sabrena and everyone else who don't like me is using him agenst me, saying more things i would rather not repete if i can help it.
 ahh, well, that ends now, everythings gonna end now.
 latter people
TTFN  August 12 honer thy mother and thy father, but screw that witch sister of mine!Okay, yes i love my family, but i don't gotta like them all at the same time. Who may i be reffering to at this moment? none other than my big sister christina. now i'm not one to use profanaty, at least not while i type, but she is a fucking bitch. my mother has been taking care of her since she was a child, and now the woman is twenty two years old, has two kids, a piece of shit for a boyfirend, and has offishally taken it too far. My sister, who is DESPRITLY in love with the bigest louser in the world, one we call matt, has decided that instead of helping me move on sunday, she is going to take her kids to see their father, who has never payed child support and dosn't even pay attention to them when he sees them. I, who have helped her move all eleven times that she has moved, was passed over for an asswhole who does nothing but nock her up and ditch her. Grrr, she makes me so fucking mad! here she is sitting in my mothers living room, calling her a fucking bitch, tellign her not to talk about things that she dons't understand, and here we all are trying not to interfear. i now have bite marks in my lip from keeping my mouth shut. ACK! there really is no way to discribe how my sister has fucked her family over over the years. she uses my family, has us all babysit for nothing and barrows money, and then goes out and gets drunk with my babys in the other room. SHe is such a selfish bitch, she keeps taking and taking and never gives anything in return. she cares about nothing but herself and a man that will NEVER love her back As it is, she has another luser for a boyfriend right now, one that dosn't pay attention to my nieces or even her unless he want's to fuck, and what does she do? she bitches and mones but stays with him anyway. then she has a sweet friend named jack come and hang out with her, one that has liked her forever. and she's telling me not to mention her boyfrind becasue she dons't want jack to know. BECASUE THAT WAY SHE CAN KEEP USING PEOPLE AS SHE PLEASES!!! well, lol, jack ain't much better, with his sneeky ways and all, but still, it's not the point. okay, this is just me rambling. i love my family ,and i even love my ssiter, but not at the fucking moment. she puts me through hell and expects me to cuddle her when she is upset, but all i can think of is deleting her from my life like a virus. if it wasn't for my nieces, i might have done that years ago, along with the rest of the family K, that's it, i'll leave u all alone now TTFN August 06 swimming!Well, people keep saying that to make my leg feel better i should work it more, and i thought that i had been, walking up and down san fransisco and rushing around with my friends at all hours of the night... but no, i was wrong, i wasn't doing enough.
I now know what it was that i should have been doing. SWIMING! lol, me and my friends have been meeting at my buddie timmy's house like every night to go swimming till around two in the morning, and my leg feels good. like really good, like i wish i had the courage to try to kick something right now good. :) i ain't gonna, not till i KNOW my leg is all better, wich involves doctors... which is bad~, i don't like doctors... nope.
Ahh, well. fun fun fun for the odd little tami girl, what are u all up to? :) i know u all read this, so what about a little feed back, guys? or maybe i should just stick to my other myspace and leave this one alone??? lol.
catch u all latterz
TTFN July 26 I fell touched, though i'm not telling any of u whyLol, okay, so here is how it all is children. No, i did not get fired. i, infact, was informed that i am getting a raise and that i am being put back to fourty hours a week. Basicly, i got my job back, the one that i didn't mind at all. :) I am, though a little wigged, very happy with this result, becasue now i can relax and continue to live, and go on with my moving out plans on scedual. Of course, should i get any call backs for any better jobs with better pay and all, such as, ohhhh, i dunno... the STATE, i will of course drop ReserveAmerica like a bad habbet, but any one there would, managment included. hell, even the janator would leave if she could, and that is pritty bad. Okay, that is it for now, TTFN all! July 23 Lol!!!Okay everyone, this is gonna be fun.
tomorrow i am gonna get fired from my job for the third time. they have fired me twice before, even tried to give me my last check, but whenever they do i point out, ever so politely, that they did not fallow protical and therefore can not justafiably fire me.
and so i go back to work, and they are left dumbfounded. and now they are gonna do it again, only they slipped up and now i have a heads up.
my only thing is that i don't know what i should do. should i make them give me my job back? or let them fire me and sue this time? i dunno. eitherway they are totally fucked in the head if they think they can fire me.
oh, well, tomorrow will be fun. i should do something fun like comptely obay the dress code and talk politely or something, that will freak them the fuzzy out! lol
okay, wish me luck on getting fired tomorrow!
TTFN July 22 RAIN!!!!OMG!!!!
Yay! it rained!!!!....
for about ten minnuts, then it went back to being evil and hot and bothering, ah well, it was good while it lasted!
lol, well, tami went on her interview for the state, so lets all cross our fingers!!!
:)
TTFN July 18 i love mini vacations!Yes, i LOVE going on mini vacations! They totally put me at ease with the world.
where did i go? lol, just to san fransisco for the weekend with a friend of mine. Since he is a native to the land, he showed me all the good places. we went to all his favorit shops and stuff on saterday, then to a very itneresting club he likes that night. On sunday we were supposed to go to china town or something, but his friend MSN'd him saying 'come to the ren fair', so YAY we gots to go to a ren fair instead!
lol, and my friend decided it would be a good weekend to get both sides of his lip pierced, so i was teasing him the whole time about eating spiciy foods and how he couldn't kiss no one or nothing! lol. yeah, i'm not a nice girl.
anywho, tami had loads of fun, then came back into town last night with a job interview this morning. okay, so it was only for thunder vallie, but they pay damn well to sit around and do nothing. but that isn't the GREAT part, the GREAT part is that while in THAT interview, i got a call for an interview with the state. i would be working for the nut house down twon, but hell, that is a DAMN good way to make some money, u know.
and me and my buddie flame went to see the apartments we are moving into today. they are really pritty, though i would have to pay more rent than her since i would be takign the master bedroom with the joint bath and all that goodness. lol, tami selfish! anyways, it's a beautiful place in a great location, only thing is that my sister lives there, and i am a little afraid of getting the babysitting jobs, u know? lol
okay, that is my life for today, how are all of u? plz let me know, becasue your friendship is inportant to me. :) it really is, even though i was beign sarcastic!
TTFN July 12 How many Beanheads does it take to screw in a lightbulb?The answer? only one, but she has to think about it REALLY hard! Lmao, okay, so none of u know who bean head is, but the important thing is that SHE knows who she is, and if she is still nosey enoug to read my myspace anymore, she deserves to know what i think of her. (read heads are the sluts right? how did that one become stupid? does she have a hidden blonde streek? me no know) Well, okay then. have any of u ever had someone ask to be a friend and not know why? and add them because u like people? tami does that alot, most of u i meet this way! :) anyway, tami meets someone named "lance" on here, and is nice and talks to them, then they give me their email, which we all KNOW is a dead give away that they aren't right. u never give away your shit witout knowing the person! anyway, i tells my friends, i tellls them "i think one of my friends is fucking with me," and i start talking to 'lance' more and mores. now, this person talks, or 'types' fammiler to me. i can't figure it out, then suddenly "SNAP"! it's Sabrena Diez~ that would be my soon to be ex husbands bitchy know it all cuzzin! duh, of course! who else would bug tami like this? NO ONE! lol. anywho, tami isn't a nice person, so she begins to lie... i'm very good at lying when it's fun. Tami tell's 'lance' how much chad beats her and how tami wan'ts allamonie in the divorce and lots of stuff to that extent, i also let 'lance' know jsut how hot he is, of course... lol i think her dumbest moment, the one that REALLY gives her the blonde aword over tami, is that when i asked 'lance' what he did for a living, she gave me her own FUCKING JOB!!! lmao, come on! and all 'lance' askes me about is my divorce and what i'm doing and the like, and then throws in some complaments, a few ego strokes i guess. then, after fourth of july, i think, okay, she HAS to know that i know it's her by now. the emails are becomeing very short and far between, so i'm like, dang, my fun over. no, no, no. she is a dirty little bitch, that one. she aparently was doing this with help. the entire family was in on it, all typing to me and shit. so they ALL think i'm some kinda big lying whore! lol No, favorit part coming up now... I'm talking to 'lance' on line the other day, and it says to me, "yeah, i'm hanging out wiht my family today, the ******* family. u are so stupid tamara" dudes, she didn't know i knew!!!!!! oh, my god, i litterly fell OFF the chair at the desk! me and my sisters and mom have been thinking up worse and worse things to tell her, and then me and my sis trish are at the comp when she says that and i can't stop laughing! oh, my god, well, at least i had a real good laugh. haven't had one of those in a while. anywho, tami gets off the subject. well, i thought "shit, that means that my friends who know the family will think that all this is true! i'm gonna loose like hella people i like! but no, leX and Flame come to tami's rescue. they are my dearest buddies who NEVER EMPTY THEIR EMAIL BOX, and have emails saved from when i met 'lance' to when i found out it was the bean head, all the way too when she finally admited it was her. yay! tami has proof, tami happy! the *******(incase u wanna know what taht star thing is, i'm saying my husbands last name. can't ahve that on line, u know~) family are great poeple, but they aren't as smart as i thought they were. oh well, wouldn't be the first time i was proved wrong! lol okay, that is all for today, children. or at least that is the quick version of the bean head (yeah, anyone wanna meet her? didn't think so) TTFN July 10 San FransiscoOkay. how many of you pple out there know that San Fransisco is the GAY cappitol of California? ohh, all of u? wonderful!
Well, yesterday i got up very early, got dressed in all my chains and spikes, drank a big glass of milk, and headed down the hill to sacremento to round up my men.
by the way, all of my men are gay.
well, i grabbed Danny first, then swong around to pick up ryan. it was about nine ten then, so i was actaually early, wow! well, my car is a POS, so we were taking my friend Brian's car to the ferry in velejo. we got to Brain's around ninethirty, and entire half hour early, and nocked. no answer...
nocked again...
no answer.
we nocked and banged and rang the bell for an hour and a half, no answer. his car was there, but his parents car wasn't. finally, giving up in a way, we break in.
no, not that way. i had Ryan hop the fence into the back yard and go through the back to let ME in, so I could go wake brian up. yeah, he was sleeping in his room, he had ignored his alarm and just... slept. so we ended up leaving for san fran around eleven, getting there around two, and meeting up with my friend leX around three.
of course my wonderful gay men wanted to go to the gayest part of town, so i, the only hetrosexual FEMALE felt quite out of place. good thing that i'm not the shy type! lmao.
anyway, we had fun, tami gots a new toy, and when i can get a pic of it (it's not dirty, they baught me a hand claw) i'll show it to u. I like it, it's cute! :)
anway, got home around three and went to bed. still tired, but i know that i will live.
okay, that is it ofr today, just thought i would let u all know how life is for tami today.
TTFN
Tami Lee July 06 wow, was that last one meanYellow, everyone.
Tami sorry for every nice person who reads this to have to read that. i am a bitch and occashonally, please just forget that ever happened, k?
My job hates me, my leg hurts, and my head spins when i get up now. that is my bad news.
I already have goten calls for state jobs, my car wont' die after all, and my wrists are begining to feel better so i can draw again soon. that is the good news.
well, that is all i have today, TTFN all
July 02 lmaoYes, Laugh My Ass Off.
i can laugh becasue i know that sometimes what people say isn't worth the paper it is written on, or in this case, the megga bites it's saved on.
If anyone in the Holcomb family still reads this, and i have no idea why u would, since u all (deservingly) hate me, i have one thing to say, and go ahead and comment, i don't fuckin care.
I didn't DESEVE anyone, i told chad how i felt, he gave me a week, and so i left. i don't want to hurt anyone, i don't want anyone to be upset, i just can't do this FUCKING SHIT anymore.
I love chad, but not in the way he deserves, and what is between him and me is between him and me, SABEENA, and others. i don't care what u say to me or think of me, because i did what i know was write. now he is rid of me and can be happy, like Char said he is. and i hope she was telling the trouth, becasue i WANT him to be happier, that is why i am gone. i made him fuckin misrable, and if any of u care about him at all, u will not try to hurt me because i let him go.
i'm sorry if i am a bitch, but u go ahead and tell me what was i supposed to do? let this breathing thing take over and kill me in my sleep? go on pretending until one day we wake up and we have turned into Frank and Meree on 'everybody loves raymond'? i don't want that, and i'm sorry. i tried, i really did.
so my last words are these, and if u don't like them, quit reading my myspace...
"Karma is a bitch, sabeena is right, but at the moment i can breath without pain, my stomach aches have gone away, and apparently chad is happier than anyone has seen him in a long time. so u fucking tell me this, what the fuck did i do wrong? do u think this is like JOnny and whorey lori? just because people break up there has to be a good guy and a fuckin bad guy? i don't think so. go ahead and lable me, and make fun of me in the backyard while drinking and BBQing, i don't care. i did alot of shit that makes me good for a fuckin laugh. But don't try to hurt me, don't go out of your FUCKING WAY to hurt me."
i always warned u i was a fuckin bitch, but no one seems to listen to Tami, just because she's kinda stupid and odd. i told chad that i would end up hurting him, because i AM my mother's daughter, weather or not i like it, and that means that i will hurt MANY people in my fucking life. i don't choose to be fridged, to not like sex, to be everything that makes people cringe, but i am. so fuckin deal, ok?
and fuck u, sabrena, Ashley Hope Holcomb is MY sister too, she picked me for the title, she didn't ask your oppinyon, and i couldn't care less what the fuck u think
TTFN June 30 life, liberty, and the persute of distructionWell, here we are again, children.
tami is bored.
not just today, mind u, with everything. the world has become rutene, everything in my life has fallin into a dismal pattern that is inescapable
I'm gonna get a better job, better car, my own place to live where i don't have to deal with a roomamte of any kind, but that is all latter. that is all in the future, and the present is borring me to death.
today the worst thing happened to me. worse than my leg, my divorce, and my shame.
today i lost something more pressous to me than even my own life. a small butterfly necklace given to me by my lttle sister Ashely, a few weeks before she died. she told me that no matter what happened with me and chad, if we stayed together or broke up, me and her would always be sisters, and that this proved it.
i have never taken it off, exsept to clean it, in all the time she has been gone, and now that it is no longer around my neck, i feel as though a hammer crashed through my chest and broke my heart into pieces. I still have the chain around my neck, but my butterfly is gone.
it's like a sign. my mother in law told me in an email that ashely would not be happy with what i have done. that she would not like it, and now my necklace has broken, so it is hard to not belive her, and that ashley hs deserted me as well. life, liberty, and the persute of distruction
here is my distruction, so now i'm going to bed. just thought u should all know if i don't come back for a while that i have a good reason TTFN
June 29 I am BACK!Yes, it took six million years, but i fianlly figured out how to download the new msn to my mom's comp, and now have accsess to my myspace once more!!!
yes, i know, u all missed me like mad, but i couldn't help the situation.
lol. anywho....
here is the bad news, the reason i haven't been anywhere is because i am getting a divorce. uck, even the word is ugly. i feel like such a fuckin bitch. i left him, and am kinda crashing with my mom on her blow up mattrice until i get a place of my own.
i fucked up my leg, too. i twisted my ankle and dislokaed my knecap at the same time in kickboxing, and now i found out that i fractured the bone, so i'm limping like a damn gimp right now. but it was prtty funny when i fell. i let out a little yip like a dang dog and fell over. everyone thought i was kidding when i said i think it is not in place anymore, so when they moved me and saw my leg twist over slightly, they all freeked.
anywho, that is my life at the moment, not so great but at least i'm breathing.
bye guys!!! lol
TTFN
tami lee May 27 ello' world~well, i never thought this would happen to me, but it finally did. i have insomia. a very light case i think, it has only been a week without sleep so far. well, the good news is that i am reconecting with my night owl friends once more, the ones that sleep all day and awaken when everyone else goes to sleep. i even found a friend that i havent' seen since higschool through some other friends! yay! i love people! sorry if this has been a dull sight lately, but besides not sleeping, my life has grown very rutine. my husband dosn't like this whole not sleeping thing. i don't just sit around the house. if i can't sleep, i go out and have fun, bugging poeple, i don't just sit there in the dark willing myself to dream land, u know? lol, that is it for now, gonna go out and have some more fun! TTFN May 23 well, i am back so stop talking about me behind my back!!! lolYellow all!!! did u miss me? i missed me too! my buddie brian said that california was very quiet without me! is this true? i guess so, :) i had a blast, if u wanted to know, and fuie on u if u didn't! i got to see starwars eppisode three, and i gotta say it wqas the bestest of the first three by far, and it was even better than five, but then again, not many people like number five! my fav is still number six, becasue number three has the sad ending. u know, anican becoming vador and all, right? lol everyone in the world loves me, i know it, but sometimes i don't see why, u know? i am quite annoying, so my innocent charm runs out really quickly, if u know what i mean. there is only so much blondism that people can take at one time maybe that is why my husband and i fight like cats and dogs. i rarly get ti enjoy our life together since most of the time we are fighting. okay, that is it, if u want to knwo about my vaca, u need to ask perticuar questions, because i am not sqeezing a whole week into this bulliton. May 16 Okay, byebye now!Well, it has been real, and i know i have been ranting about it for a while now, but today is my Anaversery, and tomorrow i leave at like four in the mornin, so u can emagin why i am saying my good byes now, right? lol okay, i love u, bubye! TTFN ~Tami Lee~ May 12 planet of the monkeys!What will u all do when i go away for a week? there will be no interent where i will be, so u will all have to go elsewhere for your gosip! lol, oh, no u won't! u don't read this anymore! i'm tired, my head hurts, but at least i can go back to kickboxing~! yay~ TTFN May 10 renoI"m going to reno!!! yeah, i know, i'm not twenty one, so i can't really do anything, but at least i will get to not work, and be pampered for a long time and shit! that is how it works, i guess. i'm not going to get payed for this vacataion, and if u want to know why, see my last rant. but i don't care, i'm otta here dont' worry, i don't leave for a few days, so i'll be here for a bit ye!!! lol TTFN tami lee May 07 what a vacationWell, today is Saterday, and i guess it is the last day of my "vacation" At my job, if u get sick, 'even with a dcotors note' and u have PTO time saved up, they use it. even if u don't want them to. I have plans to go to reno with my husband for a week, and i am still going to go, but i just won' get payed for it, so this past week has teconently been my vacation. forget the fact that i was in the hosptial, then flat on my back, unable to even go to kickboxing!!! lol, ah well, that is okay. it isn't like i make any real mony at my job, anyway. Chadwich is the big money maker in the family, and he has over two weeks of vacation saved up. so i guess we are cool, right? okay, i guess that is it. i have to go to a bridal shower for a woman who is already married now, so byebye! TTFN |
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